On Saturday I went to Weight Watchers for my weekly weigh-in. I weighed 263 lbs. Based on past posts, many of you understand how frustrated, angry and disheartened I felt when I looked at that scale. My Weight Loss and Gains Here’s a quick history of my weight loss journey, which you can see in […]
Today I had planned to write a post about an interesting article that was sent to me. It was about the stigma men face compared to women. Sorry, I can’t do it today. It’s more than I can handle. Instead I’m doing a quick post on how I’m doing. I hate writing a whiny post, […]
It came back. Every time I think it’s gone for good, it comes back. Nothing scares me more. Nothing makes me feel more vulnerable. Nothing makes me feel so out of control. Nothing makes me feel so alone. There’s nothing that I hate more than dissociation. It’s been about a year since I had my […]
Bipolar Disorder NOS. What the hell does that mean? I know NOS stands for “Not Otherwise Specified.” But again, I ask, “What the hell does that mean?” My first introduction to NOS was when I was attending a support group in Long Beach. A couple of people had that diagnosis and they weren’t happy about […]
Breaking the Rules My regular readers know that I have a pretty firm rule that I do not discuss medications by name because I don’t want to discourage someone from taking a med that didn’t work for me, but might work for them. We are not all identical, biochemically speaking. For the 8 years I’ve […]
Yesterday, I posted an article giving a couple of updates regarding what I’ve been up to during my hiatus. If you missed it, you can find it HERE. I ended the post by saying I would give more updates today and, as shocking as it may seem, here they are. Weight and Fitness Fitness has […]
Well over a month ago I swore I was going to post an overall update soon. Well, it’s past soon, but here I finally am to tell what the hell is going on with me. Nervous About my Nervous System This is probably the most frustrating thing going on in my life right now. Here’s […]
The MRI above is a pic of the inside of my head. Contrary to popular belief, I do have a brain. But there’s other stuff there. There’s bone tissue, ligaments, muscle and more normal stuff. In addition to all that, there’s one thing that doesn’t belong. A brain tumor. See that kind of oval shape […]
Since 2008 I’ve been consistent of one thing with this blog, and that is shutting it down every couple of years. It’s not something I plan ahead. For one reason or another I found it necessary to do so. It breaks my heart. But, it’s time to do it again. As most of you know, […]
This weeks Throwback Thursday, I’m posting it again because it is such an important subject. This was originally posted in October 2014. Suicide Ideation I was on the bus the other day and began thinking how much I miss owning a car, which reminded me that I miss owning a home, which reminded me how […]