I was a young man having a hard time accepting I was gay. Due to my bipolar disorder I already acted strangely, felt outside the rest of the world and felt lonely. I didn’t feel shame, but didn’t one more thing that would make me different than everyone else. God knows, I already felt different […]
Category: bipolar disease
So Pretty, and Witty, and Gay – Part II
When I was in Junior High my family moved to North Carolina. Being a boy from the Midwest, this was major culture shock. I refused to think that I was gay, but I knew I had gay feelings. There was no way that I could possibly let them know my feelings. Can you imagine if […]
The Poopship Enterprise
I was a weird kid. I mean really weird. I mentioned once that around 14 years old that I walked around my neighborhood naked at 2 am. There seemed to be something about me that liked to take it all off. There was this book I read when I was 11 years. I don’t remember […]
Perception Problems
Remember the movie “Ghost”? When Patrick Swayze’s character dies he can’t touch anything. His hands keep going through anything he tries to touch. That’s what it sometimes feels to me. There’s a major flaw in the movie, by the way, since he does run up stairs and is able to ride a subway, but I […]
Dealing With Us
Loving a person who is bipolar can be difficult at times. I’ve seen many people who have a loved one who is bipolar handle it well. Unfortunately I frequently see some who do not handle it well. Below I’ve shortened a list of do’s and don’ts from the excellent Depression and Bipolar Alliance website, plus […]
Sleep
Most of my life I had sleeping problems. If I was depressed I was too worried to get to sleep. If I was manic I was …well, too manic. I did lots of things throughout the night to pass the time. I would draw, write, etc. Then there were the odd things that I did. […]
Writer’s Block
Since I started this amazing blog 4 months ago, I have benefited the blogosphere with my incedible wit and wisdom. The past couple of weeks, however, have not been so easy. It seems I have writer’s block. Previously my pen flowed across the page like a crystal spring flowing down a mountain. Now I find […]
Another Big Duh
I’m manic today and as usual I love it. The bad part, however, is Maurice wants to chill on his day off. As a result I want to bounce, bounce, bounce all around the house and he wants to watch the tube. In our tiny apartment that is not a good combination. I always love […]
Xtreme Blogging
Here and there some nosy so and so will ask how much time I spend online. It’s question that you’ll occassionally hear about television, but never seems to carry as much disdain. This is completely understandable since having intelligent conversation with people all over the world is much less important than some hack lounge singer […]
I Am NOT Okay
I hear it all the time, “I’m glad to see you are much better.” “How are you doing?” “You look so much better today” etc. etc. etc. I’ve got news for you folks…I’m NOT better. OK, maybe I am from a few months ago, but unless they come up with a cure I will have […]