In my most recent post, several weeks ago, I said I may be closing this blog to focus on a new blog related to my writing. I decided I don’t have the time or energy to start a new one, yet I’ve made the very difficult decision to close “Insights From a Bipolar Bear” anyway. […]
Many of you have read my story about living on the streets, but this story, which was published several years ago, covers a lot of area that I haven’t covered before. Because of its length, I originally planned to post this over a couple of days but decided against that. It would affect the impact […]
I asked my husband, Maurice, to think back to before I was taking meds. We both remember the trial and error period when my pdoc and I were trying to find the right combination for me. Some of the meds had some pretty wacky side effects. In fact, one of them made me attack Maurice. […]
Dare I say it…it’s big…I should resist, but I must be honest. Here it goes…I was never a David Bowie fan. There, I got it off my chest. I admitted I find Bowie to have been kind of meh. interestingly one of my favorite songs is by him. In fact, it’s right up there […]
Today I turned fourteen. December 8, 2003 was my first day clean and sober. It may surprise some people to hear that after I got sober my life got worse. I lost all my friends (barfly’s actually.) I wound up homeless, which never happened while I was drinking. My life was in ruins as I […]
I’m poor, overweight, have bipolar disorder, and more than anything lately, I’m loaded with self-pity. I don’t know why I’ve been feeling self-pity more lately than the past, but it doesn’t seem to be in any rush to go away. One strong possibility is the state of my country. The US of A is being […]
Wow. With a goal of posting twice a week, it appears I set myself up to fail. I’ve become so obsessed with finishing my novel that I have gotten so that I don’t allow myself any distractions, including blog writing. I watch very little TV, but I do watch The Walking Dead, which I saw […]
After over ten years of being unemployed, I have a job. It’s a nice little job. I work for a friend who is a web designer. I have a little bit of a background in web design and HTML coding, almost all of it self-taught. I also know WordPress very well, and a lot of […]
I promised myself that I’d post around twice a week – not doing too well on that promise. It’s been two months since my last post. My head isn’t in a space to write in my usual manner, so I’ll just list what’s going on in a half hazard way. I’ve started working for […]
It came back. Every time I think it’s gone for good, it comes back. Nothing scares me more. Nothing makes me feel more vulnerable. Nothing makes me feel so out of control. Nothing makes me feel so alone. There’s nothing that I hate more than dissociation. It’s been about a year since I had my […]