Last week I mentioned that due to a series of panic attacks I did not get an essay turned in, so I did the math and determined that the best final grade I was capable of was a “C”. I discussed this with my professor and he encouraged me to drop the class and take it […]
Category: depression
It’s All Good
Sometimes I look back on old posts and think I’m very negative. Too negative. Am I really always that miserable? The answer is no. I am not. Oh, I get some fucked up days… many of them, actually, but I probably have more good than bad. At the very least it’s 50/50. This blog is […]
Good to be Back
Where the hell have I been? Good question. I’ve been busy juggling the various aspects of my life and not doing a very good job of it. It’s been odd not having read or written any blog articles for a couple of weeks. It’s good to be back. Well kinda. An update regarding my depression. […]
Sick and Tired
It’s been a difficult ride lately. I’ve been sharing for a long time now that I’ve been dealing with depr3ssion. I mean, yeah, I live with it daily, but it’s been beating me beyond normal wear and tear. I met with my therapist on Wednesday and we discussed this. He was surprised that I have been unsuccessful getting my […]
Wednesday’s Quote: Elizabeth Wurtzel
“That’s the thing I want to make clear about depression: It’s got nothing at all to do with life. In the course of life, there is sadness and pain and sorror, all of which, in their right time and season, are normal—unpleasant, but normal. Depression is an altogether different zone because it involves a complete […]
Gain a Few, Lose a Few
(sigh) Another frustrating weigh in on Saturday. I knew the scale was not going to be my friend. It practically growled at me when I walked in the door. I’d made a decision, beforehand, that I was not going to get weighed. My tighter clothing told me it was not going to be pretty. I […]
Fifty
Tomorrow (Saturday Sept 28) is my fiftieth birthday. Yep, the big Five-O. I didn’t think it was going to bother me, but I’m shocked that I was wrong. All week I’ve been irritable. It didn’t bother me when I turned thirty. It didn’t bother me when I turned 40. Interestingly, it did bother me […]
Missing Mania
I miss mania. The last time I felt manic was back in February of last year. My pdoc asked me how I was doing and I practically leaped out of my seat and said “FANTASTIC!” It was a lot like Tom Cruise jumping on Oprah’s couch kind of thing. We had a little chat and […]
Who? When? Where? How?
Several years ago my therapist gave me a memory test. This took place when I was in the midst of despair and my pdoc and I were working together to find the medicinal cocktail that was right for me. Naturally my test results were abysmal. One part of the test involved my therapist listing 10 […]
Bad Solutions
I have a list of things I could post today, but there’s one problem – depression. It hit me yesterday, but I didn’t realize it. You’d think by now I’d know the signs when it is about to rear it’s ugly head. We went to Maurice’s parents for Labor Day but I really wasn’t there. […]