The end of my blog post yesterday left me hanging by a thread trying desperately to find help for what I then thought was depression. I was reaching the point that I couldn’t stand it anymore, but every county mental health clinic I went to for help turned me away because they were backlogged. All […]
Category: medication
When You Get Worse
Once upon a time I was a young(er) lad who was having struggles getting help from the Los Angeles County mental health department. I was dealing with acute bouts of major depression, but, I was turned down again and again and again. Each of the clinics told me they were working with more clients than […]
The Best Bradley I Can Be
I’ve had many good things in my life. I have much to be grateful for. However, life has been hell. The confusion, memory loss, insecurities, manic episodes, depressive episodes and all the negative self talk made for some miserable times. I was relieved when I was first diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Finally it had a […]
Hunger
Like most people on psych meds, I gained weight after taking them. I read recently that most people gain 7-14 lbs average. Once again, I have to disagree with these statistics based on my own observations. I would guesstimate that 30 – 50 lbs as the average. Unfortunately I went way beyond that. By the time […]
Brads Rant Of The Day
I’ve been taking 10mg a night of a certain medication for years . Recently my doctor changed my dosage to 20mg a night. Last month the prescription went through with no problem. However, this month, when my pharmacy checked to make sure my meds would be covered by Medi-cal the prescription was denied. Several calls to the pharmacy […]
Is Honesty the Best Policy?
I was running a bit manic in January so my pdoc changed my meds a bit, which you may have seen me whine about here. Today when I met with him he asked how it’s going and I told him that I think he needs to adjust my meds back because I’ve felt so drained […]
How is Bradley Physically Part II
Yesterday I explained how I gained weight to 305 lbs. Now it’s time for the rest of the story…how I lost it. I finally got smart and worked the Weight Watchers program-a little bit. It took me awhile, but I started losing a pound here and there and got down to 285 lbs. Despite all […]
How is Bradley – Physically?
I updated how things have been going for me mentally. Now it’s time to catch you up on how things are going physically. In the beginning, on the second post I made on this blog, I whined about weighing 293 pounds. Now that’s a lot for a guy who’s only 5’5″ tall. Well, quite a […]
What? A Med Change? OMG I Thought I Was Over With This.
I can’t believe it. That thumping is the sound of me banging my head against the wall. I thought the meds I was taking were over and done with. I know they’ll have to be tweaked from time to time for the rest of my life, but, I thought I’d get a break. Unfortunately I’ve […]
Doing Better, Doing Worse
I still continue to struggle posting here on my blog. I’m so much better physically and mentally than I was during this blog’s early life. Maybe that’s the problem. Maybe artists, writers, etc. do their best work when life ain’t running so great. I’d hate it if that is true. I had sooo much fun […]