It’s been a difficult ride lately. I’ve been sharing for a long time now that I’ve been dealing with depr3ssion. I mean, yeah, I live with it daily, but it’s been beating me beyond normal wear and tear. I met with my therapist on Wednesday and we discussed this. He was surprised that I have been unsuccessful getting my […]
Category: suicide
Fifty
Tomorrow (Saturday Sept 28) is my fiftieth birthday. Yep, the big Five-O. I didn’t think it was going to bother me, but I’m shocked that I was wrong. All week I’ve been irritable. It didn’t bother me when I turned thirty. It didn’t bother me when I turned 40. Interestingly, it did bother me […]
Lithium
For no reason in particular I’m posting the song Lithium today. Nirvana is my favorite band of all time and Lithium is one of my favorite songs. While I’ve never been on Lithium, I relate to the highs and lows of this song. It is unknown, to the general public, whether Kurt Cobain was diagnosed […]
Choose Life
Suicide has been on my mind a lot lately. Don’t worry, it’s not something I’m considering. I’ve been researching information for a sermon I’ll be conducting in July while our minister is on sabbatical. Naturally, my sermon will be about mental health. Part of the research I’m doing is analyzing suicide rates of those with […]
Blog for Mental Health 2013
I pledge my commitment to the Blog For Mental Health 2013 Project. I will blog about mental health topics not only for myself, but for others. By displaying this badge, I show my pride, dedication, and acceptance for mental health. I use this to promote mental health education in the struggle to erase stigma. When […]
When You Get Worse, Part II
The end of my blog post yesterday left me hanging by a thread trying desperately to find help for what I then thought was depression. I was reaching the point that I couldn’t stand it anymore, but every county mental health clinic I went to for help turned me away because they were backlogged. All […]
When You Get Worse
Once upon a time I was a young(er) lad who was having struggles getting help from the Los Angeles County mental health department. I was dealing with acute bouts of major depression, but, I was turned down again and again and again. Each of the clinics told me they were working with more clients than […]
Reflection
Over the past couple of days I went back and read my posts during 2008 and 2009. This was when my bipolar disorder was at its worst and MY pdoc had not yet discovered what medications worked for me. I still struggle with it on a daily basis, but rarely close to the way it […]
Another Big Duh
I’m manic today and as usual I love it. The bad part, however, is Maurice wants to chill on his day off. As a result I want to bounce, bounce, bounce all around the house and he wants to watch the tube. In our tiny apartment that is not a good combination. I always love […]