Mood
I’ve been so depressed it’s depressing. It hit on Monday and pretty much stayed with me throughout the week. It’s the worst I’ve had in a while.
Monday’s are always difficult even if I’m not depressed. Maurice and I talked and he suggests I need to stop working on Mondays. No writing, no dusting, no laundry, dishes, etc. Just veg. It doesn’t matter how much or how little I do on the weekend, there’s always some sort of interaction with people and that wears me out. Well, wears me out is not really the right term. Let’s say it exhausts me. Even if it’s not from being around people, my daily rituals are not the same which are equally exhausting. On the one hand, it would be nice to chill and watch some bad movies. On the other, I feel uneasy if I’m not working on my manuscript. You’d think after all these years that I’d learn to accept my limitations, but it’s still a constant battle.
I did go for a walk along the beach this morning. I’ll have to see how I feel later to determine what I’ll do. Moving forward it will be part of my daily routine.
Weight and Fitness
I’ve been so depressed it’s depressing. Wait. I think I’ve said that.
Weight on Sep 24: 261.6 lbs.
Because of other obligations, we missed another week of Weight Watchers so I didn’t get weighed again. I do know there are now some clothes that are too small for me to wear. The ones that do fit me, are pretty tight.
A little back story. My maximum weight was 303 lbs. Through Weight Watchers, and a lot of exercise, I lost 90 lbs. Unfortunately, that’s where I stayed awhile and eventually my weight obviously crept back up. Why did this happen? Because I stopped following the WW program and I stopped exercising. At this point I’m sick of it.
My primary exercise when I was losing before was walking. Walking along the beach five days a week to be precise. I’ve decided since it worked back then, then it should work now. Getting to walk along the beach was a great motivator. My hope is that my morning walks will not only help me lose weight, but will also help keep my depression in check.
Writing
One more time… I’ve been so depressed it’s depressing.
Because of the depression I got very little written. I did get some editing done, but overall, not so much.
Synopsis
Depression sucked. Weight sucked. Writing sucked. Hands down an E for the week.
(((hugs)))) and powerful prayers that this will be a MUCH better week, my friend!
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Thank you for the prayers. I hope so.
But you can write about and that is good!
This is true
Walks are a life saver. Good for your heart and the sunshine helps a bit with the depression (as does just getting out of the house). Keep it up! Wishing you well.
There’s usually cloud cover coming off the ocean when I start, but clears up by the time I’m done. I notice a big difference.
But there is a glimmer of hope because we know the mood *will* change for the better. Hang on to that, Bradley. My heart goes out to you.
Thank you, Journey. I’m still not at the top of my game, but I am doing better so far than last week.
I so feel you, its cold and gloomy here makes me want to sleep all day, its that time of year where I’m depressed until spring. I try to watch tv/movies, read books, find something positive to do, go to the library, park,I don’t know anything to get you off the couch or chair or out of bed, Feel better soon!
I walk to the library, which is 5 miles away, when I can. Haven’t been able to do it the past couple of weeks, but its starting to feel like better days are coming around.
hang in there, just remember every day is a fresh slate, we get to try again.
Exactly. Knowing that is all that keeps me going sometimes
I relate to exhaustion from weekend people-ing. I’ve tried to keep Sundays as a day of rest here, but otherwise, on Monday morning, I do about an hour of chores (the wash and floors) and then generally fritter away hours before I go to work. It’s important to have downtime.
I hope next week is a better one for you.
Thank you, Joey. I hope so too. Good that you allow yourself some downtime too.
Hey! I got your reply! 🙂 We’re off to a great start.
I think Maurice has a good plan for Mondays! Weekends are so exhausting mentally and physically, take care of you. Hoping you depression gets better sweetie!
Thank you. So far I am doing better
All the Bradley, here’s to wishing you reach your turning point soonest
Thank you, Marie
I am the same way with Mondays. I try not to plan anything on Mondays because the weekend is too exhausting. I hope you feel better soon.
Thank you, WIL. I’m still not up to par, but doing better than last week.
I do hope that as the week has gone on you’ve began to feel better! Great job on losing the 90# on your first stint! That’s amazing! I think it takes everybody hitting that point of ‘enough is enough’ to make us begin again with strength and determination. I too am rekindling a weight loss journey and I’m nervous because I always quit but excited because I’ve paid a coach to figure out a meal and workout plan for me so surely I won’t waste money I don’t have. Keep on keeping on, friend. You’re doing great. You had the energy to write to us and give us a review of your week so that has to count for something, right?
Right. It does count for something. There were many times I couldn’t.
I’m late to reading this, but I hope that you are feeling some relief from your depression, Bradly.
Depression went away and anxiety replaced it. LOL It’ll all balance out once again.